I want people to understand me

noone will ever understand me everyone my age is dumb no one is deep and emotional everyone just seems to be so plain I know how mean that sounds but that’s how I see it. There’s something wrong with me I don’t knows what my brain confuses me so much I hate it I hate myself because I feel like I try to trick myself into thinking I have anxiety or depression or an eating disorder or body dismirphia or a personality disorder I can’t though maybe I’m just an attention seeker I have been told that before but my brain doesn’t even know what it thinks my brain can’t handle thinking clearly I hate it I hate it I hate it